ellarochellelegaspiflores


Call me nikki or ella, both are fine with me. I'm a proud filipina living in Singapore. EIGHTEEN. I talk coffee, music, photography and art. LOVE ME FOR IT.

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with nothing but a stick in the sea.

Sure, it may be fun. Sure, it may be the reason why I smile now. But doesn't almost everything eventually disappear? No matter how much we try to prevent its absence, it keeps on going away. The bad part is, it always happens when you least expect it. What's worse, it never comes back...

I'm frightened. Terribly. Right now, I don't even know where I should position myself to avoid the pain and sorrow. Everywhere I go, every turn I make, there would always be an inevitable price to pay. Could God just remove the cons from all the pros?

I don't like this feeling. Rather, I HATE IT. If many of you realized, it's been loooong since I last had an emotional breakdown (and I hope everyone forgot the embarassing and stupid reason why). I've been avoiding to be depressed with all little bad things that's been happening to me for the past few months cos I'm sick of being miss no-fun-in-life. But now is different. It's no longer a "little bad thing". In this case, I cannot just sit here quietly and pretend like I'm completely happy with how things are running.