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Monday, January 26, 2009

i'm ready to cut my head off.

I'm honestly starting to feel bored with this blog stuff. THAT, or I'm just beginning to realize that this blog has no purpose to me.

I have nothing to blog about...
Nothing to express...
No secrets to reveal...

Frankly, I'm starting to miss school. Atleast there, I have SHITLOADS of things to do to keep me busy. Here at home, I have nothing but the TV and the FRIDGE. Instead of having fun outside, I'm here stuffing my way to obese land. Why? It's simple, really:

NO JOB = no money = CAN'T GO ANYWHERE = can't do anything = STUCK AT HOME

Yup. That pretty much sums it all up. I hate my life *slashes wrists*. HAHAHA.

Anywayyyyyy, I soooo can't wait to get my Nikon DSLR D90. Mom's gonna give it to me as a graduation gift. Hehehe. WOOHOO! :D

Isn't she pretty? :]
Well, she better be. Cos she costs $2000. HAHA.

Come to mama! :]

1:53 PM

Saturday, January 17, 2009

best thing about it is, this one's different.

EVERYTHING'S BACK TO NORMAL.
I'm surprised to find out that I love it more than I would have ever thought.

4:22 PM

Thursday, January 15, 2009

with nothing but a stick in the sea.

I'm stuck in my own maze.
Sometimes I wonder if what I do is worth it all...

Sure, it may be fun. Sure, it may be the reason why I smile now. But doesn't almost everything eventually disappear? No matter how much we try to prevent its absence, it keeps on going away. The bad part is, it always happens when you least expect it. What's worse, it never comes back...

I'm frightened. Terribly. Right now, I don't even know where I should position myself to avoid the pain and sorrow. Everywhere I go, every turn I make, there would always be an inevitable price to pay. Could God just remove the cons from all the pros?

I don't like this feeling. Rather, I HATE IT. If many of you realized, it's been loooong since I last had an emotional breakdown (and I hope everyone forgot the embarassing and stupid reason why). I've been avoiding to be depressed with all little bad things that's been happening to me for the past few months cos I'm sick of being miss no-fun-in-life. But now is different. It's no longer a "little bad thing". In this case, I cannot just sit here quietly and pretend like I'm completely happy with how things are running.

Fuck, dude.
I'M NOT READY TO LOSE THE ONLY THING I'VE GOT.

It means too much to me to let it go. No, not now. Not ever.

2:40 AM

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

S-H-I-T-B-A-L-L-S.

English Language - B3
Combined Humanities - C6
Mathematics - B3
Science (Physics/Chemistry) - B3
Principles of Accounts - A2

What do I have to say?

Screw that mutha fucken C6.

2:36 PM

Friday, January 9, 2009

money makes me happy. sue me.

Okay. I'm beyoooooond flattered. PEOPLE MISS ME! :D

Dada: I miss your everyday-messy-hair truckloads, woman! But more than that, I miss YOU! Mahal rin kita! :D
Sharon: I've beeeeeeeen... nowhere, really. HAHA.
Glam: Sa totoo lang, free na free ako. Hahaha. Meet tayo! :D
Romel: I'm alright. Hindi pa naman bumibigay katawan ko. Hahaha. Miss yeh too! :]

Hey people, yeh know what? I can't wait till May anymore. I WANNA GO PHIL NOW! Huhuhu. My balls are excited to party all night long, baby. I'm planning to stay there for two weeks, and meeting my friends are at the top of my to-do list. I haven't seen them for ages, man! IT'S ABOUT TIME!

So here's what I'm going to do when I go back:
1. Meet Nicole, Myla, Mara and Lizette. Known these people since Primary 3. 8yrs of friendship and still going. :]
2. Finally meet my nephew, Mhaikal. Myla's son. :]
3. Mall tripping with Majo and Ness. I miss those two goofballs.
4. Trip to Laguna with Maru.
5. Puerto Galera/Boracay with Maru&Co./Lizette&Co. WOO! :D
6. Embassy with Ate. Definitely a night to party. :]

Though these may sound fun, I'm a bit scared. Don't get me wrong, I'm alright with the plans and everything. But this also means that I'll have to spend a lot. And when I say "a lot", I mean A LOT. Damn, there goes my lifesavings. Hah.

P.S. Results are out next Monday (rather, in 3 fcuking days). Ready or not, here it comes.

3:14 PM


ellarochellelegaspiflores Call me nikki or ella, both are fine with me. I'm a proud filipina living in Singapore. EIGHTEEN. I talk coffee, music, photography and art. LOVE ME FOR IT. EXITS ♥ Go be stupid somewhere else. I won't leave my links here. FACEBOOK ♥ REWIND ♥ July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009	Monday, January 26, 2009 i'm ready to cut my head off. I'm honestly starting to feel bored with this blog stuff. THAT, or I'm just beginning to realize that this blog has no purpose to me. I have nothing to blog about... Nothing to express... No secrets to reveal... Frankly, I'm starting to miss school. Atleast there, I have SHITLOADS of things to do to keep me busy. Here at home, I have nothing but the TV and the FRIDGE. Instead of having fun outside, I'm here stuffing my way to obese land. Why? It's simple, really: NO JOB = no money = CAN'T GO ANYWHERE = can't do anything = STUCK AT HOME Yup. That pretty much sums it all up. I hate my life slashes wrists. HAHAHA. Anywayyyyyy, I soooo can't wait to get my Nikon DSLR D90. Mom's gonna give it to me as a graduation gift. Hehehe. WOOHOO! :D Isn't she pretty? :] Well, she better be. Cos she costs $2000. HAHA. Come to mama! :] 1:53 PM Saturday, January 17, 2009 best thing about it is, this one's different. EVERYTHING'S BACK TO NORMAL. I'm surprised to find out that I love it more than I would have ever thought. 4:22 PM Thursday, January 15, 2009 with nothing but a stick in the sea. I'm stuck in my own maze. Sometimes I wonder if what I do is worth it all... Sure, it may be fun. Sure, it may be the reason why I smile now. But doesn't almost everything eventually disappear? No matter how much we try to prevent its absence, it keeps on going away. The bad part is, it always happens when you least expect it. What's worse, it never comes back... I'm frightened. Terribly. Right now, I don't even know where I should position myself to avoid the pain and sorrow. Everywhere I go, every turn I make, there would always be an inevitable price to pay. Could God just remove the cons from all the pros? I don't like this feeling. Rather, I HATE IT. If many of you realized, it's been loooong since I last had an emotional breakdown (and I hope everyone forgot the embarassing and stupid reason why). I've been avoiding to be depressed with all little bad things that's been happening to me for the past few months cos I'm sick of being miss no-fun-in-life. But now is different. It's no longer a "little bad thing". In this case, I cannot just sit here quietly and pretend like I'm completely happy with how things are running. Fuck, dude. I'M NOT READY TO LOSE THE ONLY THING I'VE GOT. It means too much to me to let it go. No, not now. Not ever. 2:40 AM Tuesday, January 13, 2009 S-H-I-T-B-A-L-L-S. English Language - B3 Combined Humanities - C6 Mathematics - B3 Science (Physics/Chemistry) - B3 Principles of Accounts - A2 What do I have to say? Screw that mutha fucken C6. 2:36 PM Friday, January 9, 2009 money makes me happy. sue me. Okay. I'm beyoooooond flattered. PEOPLE MISS ME! :D Dada: I miss your everyday-messy-hair truckloads, woman! But more than that, I miss YOU! Mahal rin kita! :D Sharon: I've beeeeeeeen... nowhere, really. HAHA. Glam: Sa totoo lang, free na free ako. Hahaha. Meet tayo! :D Romel: I'm alright. Hindi pa naman bumibigay katawan ko. Hahaha. Miss yeh too! :] Hey people, yeh know what? I can't wait till May anymore. I WANNA GO PHIL NOW! Huhuhu. My balls are excited to party all night long, baby. I'm planning to stay there for two weeks, and meeting my friends are at the top of my to-do list. I haven't seen them for ages, man! IT'S ABOUT TIME! So here's what I'm going to do when I go back: 1. Meet Nicole, Myla, Mara and Lizette. Known these people since Primary 3. 8yrs of friendship and still going. :] 2. Finally meet my nephew, Mhaikal. Myla's son. :] 3. Mall tripping with Majo and Ness. I miss those two goofballs. 4. Trip to Laguna with Maru. 5. Puerto Galera/Boracay with Maru&Co./Lizette&Co. WOO! :D 6. Embassy with Ate. Definitely a night to party. :] Though these may sound fun, I'm a bit scared. Don't get me wrong, I'm alright with the plans and everything. But this also means that I'll have to spend a lot. And when I say "a lot", I mean A LOT. Damn, there goes my lifesavings. Hah. P.S. Results are out next Monday (rather, in 3 fcuking days). Ready or not, here it comes. 3:14 PM